“Therefore I will not restrain my mouth.
I will speak in the anguish of my spirit.
I will complain in the bitterness of my soul.
Am I the sea?
Am I a dragon?
Am I a sea monster?
Do you set a guard over me?
When I say,
‘My bed will comfort me.
My couch will ease my complaint.’
Then you scare me with dreams.
You terrify me with visions.
Thus I would choose strangling and death
Rather than this body.
I loathe my life.
I would not live forever.
Let me alone!
My days are a breath.
What are human beings?
Why do you make so much of them?
Why do you set your mind upon them?
Why do you visit them every morning?
Why do you test them every moment?
Will you not look away from me for a while?
Will you not let me alone until I swallow my spittle?
If I sin,
What do I do to you?
You are the watcher of humanity.
Why have you made me your target?
Why have I become a burden to you?
Why do you not pardon my transgression?
Why do you not take away my iniquity?
For now I shall lie in the earth.
You will seek me,
But I shall not be.”
Job would not restrain himself. He was bitter. Was he like the chaotic sea, a sea monster, a dragon or Leviathan? When he sought rest on his bed or couch, God sent him dreams and visions. He would rather die strangled than have this terrible body. He hated his life as he did not want to live any longer. He did not want to live forever since he realized that he was like a breath. Why does God care about humans anyway? Why is he the watcher visiting them in the morning, and every moment of their lives? Job wanted God to look away for a while, so he could swallow his spittle. Why was he the target? What burden was he to God? If he had sinned, why not pardon him. Job said that God might come after him, but he would not find him, because he was no more.